well today we went to talk to the bishop( cause he just got a calling into the ward) and he had a lot to say to us. He asked Matt if he wanted to accept a calling in the church, He said yes I would like to. What will I be doing, He said that he will be a "ward missionaries". He thought it would be great thing cause Matt can relate to people, and he has a way of talking to people cause he has been there and done it. Matt just came to the LDS Church back in June of last year and ever since then he has just grown to a great person. I'm so happy that Matt has opened his eyes to this church and god. I love the LDS church cause they are all about Family and life lessons to become a better person. As for a few things I don't believe in like how we can't eat or drink what we want, and be who we are. I understand where they are coming from cause I understand what they are saying but I feel like they need to let people be who they are.. I'm just going to stop right here cause I could go on forever and make problems.. so ya..
Well after Matt agreed to the calling, Matt asked the Bishop " Don't I have to baptized first?" " well that is the thing, We need to know that you want to be baptized in the LDS church and if so then you need to be apart of the priesthood, and of course before you can get baptized you have to get married. would you be willing to do all that?" Matthew and I looked at each other and both said yes. He told us both that he would be willing to pay for whatever we need help with and said that we could get married in the backyard of his house at night cause he can hang out lights that hang down and it would be so pretty I just closed my eyes and pictured and I almost started to cry cause it sounded so great.. I have dreamed of this day forever and I always wanted to get married at night with the stars, and hearing about the lights hanging down just reminded me of that.
He wanted to do it between the days of April 24-28 but I can't do it between those days cause mom and dad Woolley will not be here and I love them just like my family. I can't get married without them there. I want Kelsey to walk me down the isle and give me to my mom and grandpa and have both of them give me to Matthew, or if my mom will freak out about that I will Madison give me away.
I just hope everything will go okay I'm really scared to have my mom there cause she says " I ruined the day Madison was born cause I didn't care about her or her feelings, yet it was an emergency c-section and I was all high on drugs that they gave me to clam down.. oh gosh I can see she ruining my wedding.. I'm scared!!!
but I will not let my fear of her freak outs ruin my special day. I will be marrying my best friend,my lover, my life.. Oh Matt you will never know how happy you have made me, you have saved my soul by showing me that your real( I have a soul mate) I know your scared that I will leave you just like Sabrina did to you but Matt I could never do that to you, to me, to us. I love you so much that the thought of my life without you scares me so much. I need you in my life Matthew you, you filled my heart up with so much love.. Matthew with you I'm everything, I can over come anything that is thrown at me but without you I'm nothing but a scared little girl. Matthew you have shown Madison what a real father/daddy does in a family and how they are suppose to be treated. Madison at times acts like she hates Matthew but she tells me all the time that she loves Matt so much and she doesn't want him to leave us too...I cry when I hear her say that but I know that we will be together forever cause we both agree that divorce is not an option if we get married, we will have to make it work cause we both know that we can over come anything thrown at us cause we already have with a lot of help from others but we held each other up through the darkness and fought to stay in love. I know in my heart soul and everything that I am made up from that I love you and we are meant for each other.
I can't wait to start planning everything. I think i might just burst with happiness..
well I think that I will go to bed now but I just want to say one last time:
THANK YOU FATE/DESTINY/MY PATH FOR LEADING ME TO MY MATE SO EARLY IN MY LIFE
goodnight.
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