so I know its late like its 2:07 a.m. but I can't sleep I can't turn off my mind at all.. I have tried everything watching t.v, taking a warm bath just, drinking warm milk nothing has helped and I think its cause I just have so much to say and not really am one who wants to hear it....
I feel like I'm alone when it comes to my girlfriends, but finally after having a long long long long... you get the point.. talk with Matt last night after a morning of hell.
For some reason he still thinks that I would/could cheat on him, I know its hard for him to trust me cause everything that Sabrina did but I'm not her I'm me, I feel like I was never given a chance he just right away puts up a shield and pushes me away thank god for the fact that I love him with all my heart and I don't believe in divorce( not that we are married yet, but its just a stupid paper saying that I love him, we don't need that paper saying that we know its to be true in my heart.